This is me…

I am always the one interested and when I go to make a move the other lady either isn’t interested, gets embarrassed, or doesn’t return the favor. I get the look as if I am crazy. No, I am just bisexual and I like ladies. And, I had to stop being so forward because of feeling as if I made ladies uncomfortable. Oh well… I guess being a swinger will eventually lead me to a lady that can handle my weirdness!

And, actually what the picture depicts, around our area and who we are associated with, they call this “the Jenn”. Yep, it is named after me… the smooth move of somehow touching someone, mostly ladies, while pretending not to… that isn’t as bad as it seems, is it? I do pick and play a lot, but that is because if I were serious nobody would know how to take it… I think.

Another weekend on the horizon… well, duh, time doesn’t stand still…

Yep, after work tomorrow we will start another weekend. And, this up and coming weekend is full of plans. I have to shave tonight because I will not have time to do so after work tomorrow. Then, we have a house party to attend tomorrow night. Then, we have to leave the party early so my boyfriend can attend a pre-release for MTG (Magic The Gathering). Saturday, I am not quite sure what our day plans are, but that night we are going to the club. Also, we are taking a single male friend with us to the club. We are not taking him for our use, but taking him because he really wants to go. Then, on Sunday I get to drive my boyfriend to the airport. He is flying to NY for work training. That drive is around 3 hours and then, I get to drive back home… hopefully, I will be able to have a riding companion. I do not want to fall asleep on the way back. Once I get back, I will be lonely.

The start of the new work week will begin the following day before 7 am. Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday are going to be ssdd… but, then after work on Wednesday I will drive another 3 hours to go pick my boyfriend back up from the airport. I am going to have to either switch Thursday with the teenager or just not go in at all.

Also, a few things… I went to the specialist for my IC and I have revised my plan for my medications. I am going to be tapering off of most of my medications, which is great, but then I am also going to be giving myself another catheter too. So, I will be taking less medication, but adding another catheter. I hope that this works out for my body. I do not like taking medications like this. Hopefully, I will be free of almost all pill medicines in about 2 months.

And, on another subject, both of our oldest kids are going on field trips next week! Our oldest son gets to go to the zoo and our oldest daughter gets to go watch a play at the local high school.

I have one more thing…. I love music. I dig all flavors and styles of music, it just depends on what mood I am in. I, however, do not like songs in where the words are repeated over and over with nothing new to say. I listen to it, but that does not mean that I have to like it. Yes, I understand that most singers get more play on the radio with a catchy hook or chorus, but it does not need to be all that comprises a song. And, it has started to get on my nerves hearing singers not properly articulate their words. Such as, “don’t cha”, or when a singer is supposed to say “you” but says “choo” instead.

Ugh, no wonder our future generation’s speech and language skills have dropped. If their role models can not speak properly then, how can we expect the generation to do so? They don’t even teach cursive writing in school anymore. Everybody is abbreviating their words and this is becoming acceptable today. And, electronics today… they take precedence over books and written language. I think that everyone should take courses to refresh their language skills, vocabulary, and even writing skills.

Okay, well… I hope that you all have a wonderful day. I am sending out warm wishes and good vibes to you all.

Okay, now for last weekend!!!

FRIDAY NIGHT!!! Wow, that was an awesome night and party!

First off, on Friday before the kids got out of school, I packed overnight bags for both kids. One was going to the other parent, the other to a friend’s. After they left, we got ready to go to a house party. The theme was naughty lingerie and boxer night. I finally decided on an outfit I have never worn before, but it was definitely naughty. It was sheer with sparkles, open spaces at the boobs and vagina that had bows you could untie and pull apart, and the back was almost non-existent, except for a ruffled thong. I paired that with my new black shoes and my naked body.

Once we arrived, the party was going and I wasn’t ready to take my over clothes off just yet. So, we began drinking. We mingled and talked. We flirted, teased, and watched. After a few more drinks, I was ready to reveal my naughty lingerie. Once my clothes came off, the flirting and teasing really began!

I had multiple people touching me and ladies kissing me. Hell, even my boyfriend had 2 ladies pull down his pants out on the porch and start sucking his dick right there. While they were shoving him in their mouths, I went and started fingering and play with them both. A bit after that, me and my boyfriend walked out to the other porch and I proceeded to play with another chick out there. I fingered and rubbed until she squirted everywhere. She flooded the porch and caused a huge puddle. I then, went in because I had to use the bathroom…. I was waiting in line and one of the chicks who was touching and trying to kiss me earlier, came up, grabbed my arm, and knocked my drink all over me and the couch! It was the rest of my cherry red moscato.

After the drink incident, and having my boyfriend help me clean up, we proceeded to continue drinking and mingling. It was so much fun! Eventually though, we were ready to go home and sleep. Once we got to the vehicle and on the road, I noticed just how much alcohol I had consumed…. a lot. Yep, I was drunk.

Well, once we made it home we decided to have sex. I was either going to be sick, fall asleep, or have sex…so we chose the sex. Oh yes, I flooded our sheets and bed. So much that even Saturday night our bed was still wet! While we were having sex and I was squirting, my boyfriend was getting soaked too. When he was going to finish, he came on my stomach. Once, done and he was out of me, he kind of fell back because he started to not feel good. I stayed laying down and didn’t get up to clean off… then, after a bit I woke my boyfriend up to lay the right way on the bed and I rolled over and went back to sleep. We both passed out without cleaning ourselves up. The next day, however, I needed more sleep and had a huge headache, and I was not able to attend my friend’s sex toy party.

When I woke up Saturday, I took my meds, pain reliever, drank some water, and then dozed back off for a bit. I woke up next to my boyfriend telling me that he was going to the store to get stuff for the party. Right, it was our oldest daughter’s birthday! So, I jumped up, got dressed, and went with him to the store.

When we got home from the store, I baked the cake, we set up the stuff outside, and we got ready for people to show up. The cake was delicious. It was pink velvet. The food were the Totino’s pizzas. We had ice cream too! The kids were having so much fun. Even though only one person showed up, out of who she handed invitations to, there were still plenty of kids running around. My brother and his family showed up. My boyfriend’s family and their people and kids showed up… so yep, plenty of kids and people. All that matters is that our daughter had fun, and she did.

After that day and the party was over, we relaxed. It is a food thing we at least relaxed that little bit because the next fews days and week would turn out to be stressful!

Well, now you know what we have been up to… what about you? I hope you all are having a great day and enjoy your weekend!

Sending out warm thoughts and good vibes to you all!

It’s Friday!

Okay, so after work I will rush to the store and get my order of cupcakes. Then, take them to our oldest daughter’s class for a surprise! And then, after that I will go walk again. Gotta work off whatever calories are in a cupcake or 5… just joking. When school ends today, the kids each have somewhere to go that they will spend the night. And, once the kids leave school it is the beginning of spring break for them. My boyfriend even has next week off, a paid week of vacation. Anyway, tonight after the kids are gone, me and my boyfriend have a house party to attend. Tomorrow is the day of the Birthday Party!!! I hope all goes well.

I wish you all a wonderful weekend and I am sending good vibes to you all.

To party or not to party?

That is the question of this weekend. A friend of ours is coming feom out of town to visit, but it is also another friend’s birthday… and then, the club is having a St. Patrick’s Day themed party tomorrow night. No clue on what to do or what to wear. At least our kids are going to have a good weekend too. They have friends that the are going to stay with. Yep, they are finally going to spend the night with friends. I am a bit nervous about this, but it will be okay.

I think I stress too much. So, for this weekend I am going to try and just relax. Let the weekend unfold however it wants to and accept what I am given, whatever that may be.

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. Happiness and good vibes to you all!

Think for yourself and be your own person.

After another sexual weekend at the club, and playing with a couple we have played with before, I am calm and refreshed. These experiences at the club chip away at my stress. It is not just being able to be myself and not be ashamed of who I am on the inside, it is also being surrounded by like minded people. I ate a delicious pussy this weekend, sucked dick, had sex, and enjoyed all of it! I realize now, that I was meant to be where I spiritually, mentally, and sexually am at today. I am thankful to have my boyfriend who has helped me and continues to uplift me everyday. Sexually, he is the perfect partner for me. He encourages my sexual side, and I only hope that I return the favor! I mean, I was eating a pussy as he was cramming his dick into it… it was so frickin HOTT! Oh my gosh, I am wanting some sex right now… maybe me and my boyfriend can get to that when I get off of work. I love sex, but I am not a slut. I am sexually enlightened. I am sending out good vibes and warm thoughts for you all. I hope that you all have a wonderful week!

Naked lady cuddles? Yes, PLEASE!

Alright, here is what when down last night… me! Haha. Yep, I went down on a sexy chick, who I’ve had the pleasure of her company before.

Me and my boyfriend, got ready and headed to our friend’s house for dinner. We ate, we talked, and then I went to the restroom and came back out without pants on. Next time I will do that sooner! After walking out without pants, we still continued to talk and watch a bit of tv. A little bit later, we migrated into their bedroom and that is when I had to start things off.

Once in the bedroom, I started rubbing her on the outside of her pants. Me and her fiance took off her pants and underwear. Then, I really started my assault of her pussy. Some of the time I was sucking her clit like I was a vacuum! I even went down on her while her boyfriend was sticking his dick in and out of her vagina. The words, “she is so good”, came out of her mouth while I was down on her. I was biting her, scratching, pulling hair, I even lightly put my hand around her neck to squeeze it ever so gently. And, while I did these things to her, my boyfriend behind me stuck his dick, toys, and his fingers into my waiting and ready vagina.

It has been probably over 2 weeks since we last actually had sex! Yep, you read that correctly. Before last night, it was at least 2 weeks since we had sex. And, wow, was I ready for him. He made me cum and squirt, and it was delicious! I was being squirted on all over my front by the sexy lady and I was squirting too! It was awesome! I hope that me and my boyfriend get to have sex again sometime soon.

Maybe at some point in time today or tonight before my boyfriend leaves? I guess I will find out later.

A couple of things…

Okay, a few things, I went to another doctor’s appointment and my downstairs is still not cooperating, I can’t shake this sleepy feeling, we went to the club this weekend, and our gaming is becoming more prominent.

On Friday, I did not work because I had a doctor’s appointment with my bladder specialist 1 and 1/2 hours away. Yep, we are at an impasse with my interstitial cystitis. In order to help my bladder heal, more aggressive forms of treatment is our course of action. I now have to start giving myself catheters at home. Yes, you read that right. I have to insert a catheter myself and then, I have to directly inject my bladder with medication. Ugh, I am dreading having to start this. All I can do is feel pain when I think about it. I was showed how to do this on Friday and it hurt a lot. But, I have to do what I have to do in order to possibly feel better and help my bladder heal.

Alright, so after my doctor appointment, our oldest daughter went to her other parent’s house. Then, later, a sanctioned Magic The Gathering Tournament was scheduled. Yep, my boyfriend proctored this Magic event at our local card/hobby/game shop. He is becoming friends with the owners. Now, they wanted to get started at around 6:30 pm, but it wasn’t until later that they started. My boyfriend also took our oldest son with him to the shop. Yep, my son played games with the owner’s son for over 7 hours. He had a blast! They finally came back home after 1 am. I was excited that my son had someone to go play with.

On Saturday, after we all got up, we had breakfast and hung around the house. My boyfriend, his friend, and I played some Magic together. Now, we planned to go to the club this night! It was pajama themed night! Now, for this event I wore my red night gown and matching black lace panties. It looked like a dress. It is a gorgeous crimson red trimmed with black lace. I felt as if I might look alright. We went and got to hang out. We talked to those we know and some we just met. We did not have sex with anyone, not even with each other. We have not had sex in probably at least 2 weeks due to my vagina not cooperating. I hope it gets better. Oh, and this night… one of the owner’s looked particularly delicious! I could have jumped all over that if my lady parts were working correctly. Oh well, maybe another time! Around 1 am, I think it was, we drove home and went to bed.

Then, on Sunday, after playing a couple games of Magic (I won both!), we went to the card shop and dropped off a collection of heroclix. As our son was playing with the owner’s son again, we went and walked around the blocks in downtown. After that, we drove to a restaurant and had a quiet lunch. It was nice and yet, I was nervous for my son. He is growing up so much. We have been discussing the idea of having our kids go spend the night with friends, or have their friends come to our house and spend the night! Yep, I get nervous even typing that. My kids are growing up and I want to protect them from all potential harm… Also, Sunday we got our youngest daughter! Yes, the one who my boyfriend is currently going to court over. It was so nice to have her around. She is definitely more defiant and less disciplined than we had her more. We can tell they let her do whatever she wants at all times. Ugh, but hopefully the courts will help us out and do what is right for our daughter.

Okay, well, on to Monday. I got up and went to work. Fun, right? NOT! I was tired and hungry yesterday. When I cooked dinner, I got some help from our two oldest. As dinner was cooking I talked about getting our boys from their grandma this weekend. So, once I got the okay about them, I am happy to say that we will have all 5 kids this weekend! But, on Friday night, it will be just me and the kids because my boyfriend, our roommate, and their friends are going to the shop to play Magic. Yep, that means I will be by myself with the kids. Today, I brought food to work, but I couldn’t eat it all. I have also, tried falling asleep here on my desk. But, hopefully I can get to sleep earlier tonight.

Tomorrow, after work I have yet another doctor’s appointment. I will be getting my test results from last Monday as well as discussing all that is going on with my body. Let us hope that we get good news!

Oh, also… one of the funniest things my son has ever said, was said this weekend. It was Saturday night, it was dinner time, before we left for the club… as we are discussing what we should do for dinner and concluded that we wanted to order pizza. Right before we were going to order, my son looked at us and said, “don’t come crying to me when you don’t have any money, because I only have 2 dollars”… ! It was so hilarious the way he delivered this line. We could not stop laughing. Holy crap, it is still cracking me up.

Also, we are really looking to possibly move to a different house this year. Preferably a house that we can rent to own.

Okay, well, now that I have caught you all up on what has been going on, I shall wish you all a great week. Sending out good vibes to you all.

Yesterday

Yesterday I had my procedure done. The one that I had to be put under for. Well, I was in a hospital gown, laying in a hospital bed, and then the anesthesiologist came in. Since I already had the iv in, they attached the viles of good stuff and went to wheel me out. Yes, I went under in about 5 minutes. And then, I woke up.

I was dreaming and then abruptly woke up. It felt as if I was only asleep about 5 minutes. Apparently I was out for over an hour. Between my legs was a burnt orange color. My vagina was in pain as soon as I went to try and pee for the first time. From there, the pain spread and increased.

Last night we went and got both of my prescriptions. One was an antibiotic and the other a pain pill. I have taken both, but not the pain pill today. I did not know how I would feel taking that and then trying to drive around. I will save that for when I am comfortable in my own house.

I could, however, use more sleep. Maybe after I get home from running errands I can take a nap. Hopefully anyway.

Well, besides the pain, maybe the doc can come up with a plan to help me now that he knows exactly what my bladder looks like.

Also, tonight me and my boyfriend are going back to the club! Yep, we need a night out for our sanity… even if we don’t play with others tonight. It is their first New Year’s Eve masquerade party! I can’t wait! I bet it’s going to be jumping and so much fun!!

I ate some delicious pussy last night!

Oh yes, you read the title correctly! I was licking, flicking, fingering, and sucking on vagina last night. Some friends from the club invited us over for dinner and some fun! We had a couple of beers, we ate spaghetti that they cooked, watched some porn, and then when my boyfriend went to the bathroom for the 2nd time last night, we quickly got up and myself and the couple went into their bedroom. When my boyfriend came out, it was my turn to use the bathroom.

When I got out of the bathroom and back to the bedroom, I went straight for her wet pussy. (This was the same female who squirted into my hand at that house party!) I pulled down her pants and started fingering and licking. My boyfriend helped take off all of my clothes as I was going down on her. I sucked on her clit, licked it rough, fingered hard and fast, and tried to make her squirt. From the angle I was at, it was a bit tiresome for my wrist and fingers. Her boyfriend, however, who was helping finger and rub her took over for a moment. That moment was all it took to get her squirting everywhere. The bed was so wet. After a she came a few more times, my boyfriend came after my pussy with one of our toys. He made me squirt and drip all over her leg, as I was straddling one of her legs. So, with that, the fact that both me and her had squirted, the guys took this chance to undress and hop behind us. My boyfriend was behind me and her boyfriend was behind her. After, some time with our boyfriends giving it to us, we slowed down and stopped.

After, she came back from the bathroom, I rubbed her still wet vagina. I rubbed it slow and soft. It was comfortable and I probably could have fallen asleep with my fingers in her. She said it felt good and relaxing. She could have fallen asleep with my fingers in her too. Her pussy was so warm, soft, and wet it was like a vagina mitten for my fingers.

Also, one thing I noticed and enjoyed immensely, her vagina smells and more than likely tastes like me. It made me less self conscious about my body and pussy. I get really self conscious about my squirting and juices too, but I don’t think that I will anymore as another female is similar. Damn, was she sexy!!

As that was our first time at their house, we will be more comfortable from now on when we visit. And, the more we visit and play with them, the more we become closer to swapping with them. I love to experience all of these adventures with my boyfriend. He is amazing and makes me feel like I am the most amazing woman. I would not be where I am today if it were not for him. The last few times we have played and had fun in the lifestyle, I feel that it has definitely brought us closer together. We get stronger as a couple with each obstacle, experience, and each passing day. There is nothing that I would not do for him and his happiness.

Sex, within the lifestyle, is just that, sex… and fun! Not one thing that we do with these other couples and ladies can even compare to the emotions and feelings that occur between me and my boyfriend when we make love.

Do others not have that strong of a bond that something as small as sex can rip them apart? I mean, humans are sexual by nature, others hide and shy away from their natural selves just to fit in with society. Never have I understood that and I never will. Being with my boyfriend has made me realize just how sexual I, and humans, really are. I may have sex and play with others, but my boyfriend has my heart. It is the same for him. When we engage in the lifestyle and play, it is consensual between me and my boyfriend. One of the reasons other relationships fail when it comes to having sex with other people outside of the relationship, in my opinion, would probably be more about the lying and deceit rather than the sex itself. If my boyfriend wants to play, then he talks to me about it, instead of sneaking behind my back. We involve each other and keep our communication open.

The world would be a better place if humans accepted all of our animal like traits and stopped trying to repress all of our differences and what makes us who we are.

Okay, so I started this blog off with sex and fun, and then ended with my thoughts on the human race. Anyway, I hope that you all enjoyed and again, if you have any comments or questions, please feel free to do so.

Also, I hope to be able to provide further details about my sexual adventures and experiences in the lifestyle… until then, live free.