Affordable healthcare? Ha, yeah right!

So, my government healthcare insurance has been denied and cancelled because I make too much money. Now, this insurance is for me and my son, he is still allowed to receive full benefits… thank goodness for that. My monthly income is around 800 after taxes. So, on top of bills, I will now have to try and pay for my medical issues as well.

If you not read my blog before, I have a bladder disease called interstitial cystitis. I give myself 2 catheter installations a day as well as take a daily oral medication. These medicines are costly. I have to go to the doctor and my specialists every few months. Also, due to my catheter installations my body is more prone to urinary tract infections.

Due to making about $300 over the 2 person family income limit, I now can not afford my medications and can not go to the doctor. What the hell am I to do now?

I have checked out the websites for affordable health care, but it is not really affordable. If I were to get insurance it would cost me about half my paycheck a week. What the fuck?? If my health goes down hill oh well huh? The people of this country do not give a shit about anyone but themselves (and money), especially our governments.

The government claims they have affordable health care insurance, but what they don’t mention is that it’s only really affordable if you are already monetarily wealthy. What about the middle class? Or those who actually work, but are still in the poverty level? In order for me to be able to have health insurance I would need to basically quit my job and become a bum. Sorry, I need my job.

I guess I will have to live without insurance and my medications, once it runs out.

I wish my voice, opinions, and thoughts actually counted for something in this life…

Anyway, I am sending out good vibes and warm wishes to you all!

Anal probing

So, today I had an appointment with a new doctor, a gastroenterologist. I think this doctor owes me a dinner and/or a dessert. He stuck his finger into my sphincter and probed around a bit. Ugh, it was painful. Yes, I do like anal sex when I am in the mood for it, but I do not like fingers in my ass. I understand that may seem odd to some, but there is a difference between a dick and someone’s finger. I would still like to be touched all over with hands, during sex, than have to stop and have my boyfriend go wash his hands… but, with his dick we can have anal sex until we finish and then, we both can go shower. We would not have to stop in the middle just to wash off. Anyway, I was probed by the doctor and it was painful. As a conclusion, he set up an appointment for me to go back and have a procedure done to see what’s going on in there. It’s not a full colonoscopy, but a procedure less invasive. I don’t mind as long as they figure out why I am having certain problems…. I have blood in my stool some days, other days it is green and has mucous, and some days I have to go more than 3 times a day.

Since my diagnosis of interstitial cystitis, my body has had other problems. Hopefully, once I cycle off most of the meds, my body will repair itself and grow stronger! That is my goal anyway.

Tonight is the last night of one of the prescriptions I am on, a muscle relaxer. Tomorrow I will start to cycle off another one of the meds. I will just reduce the amount by half and after a week be done with it. By next Thursday I will be mixing one of the medicines in with the catheter medicine. That will put me at taking only 1 prescription by mouth, which is an antihistamine. My doctor said I shouldn’t get off of it until after memorial day due to the pollen and allergy season.

I look forward to the days coming up because, hopefully my body will be able to repair itself and I will not be a slave to all these medications.

Well, I hope that you all have a wonderful day and great rest of the week.

I am sending out good vibes and warm thoughts to you all.

April Fool’s Day

So, as far as today is concerned, I have not been able to pull any pranks or jokes. I’m just looking forward to going home after work and digging into my beef lo mein with pepper beef and onion, dumplings, rice, crab rangoons, and whatever else food we have. I just hope that I am able to make it through today unscathed. I guess I will have to wait and see.

I finally got shoes for my walking! Yep, new sneakers, and I have been able to really start walking after work. I went yesterday and walked, today I will take off, and tomorrow and Friday I will walk.

Also, I may have gotten a couple more pairs of shoes last night too. Since I paid my credit card off, I am able to use it again. Okay, okay, you got me… I actually got either 5 or 6 pairs of shoes. But,  at least they were from payless and all on sale! I like shoes. Yes, it is one of my vices… or addictions. What do I have to say for myself, you may ask. Well, I will tell you… my boyfriend made me do it! I swear, it is all his fault!

Now that, that is over, my next order of business is to get my ac fixed in the car. It has been years since I have had a running ac. I will not make it another summer without it. The kids will not be able to make it riding in the car without ac for another summer either.

And, I would like a haircut and a dye job… I think. I can’t decide. I always want to cut my hair short, but at the same time I want my long hair to be a bit longer. So, I propose that I cut my hair short, but get a long haired wig too! Does anyone else have this dilemma? I have had it really short, every color of a rainbow, and long and natural. I like my hair, but I know when I get my hair cut that it will grow back.

In a couple of weeks I will go see the specialist again about my ic. I am going to ask his opinion of me getting off all the meds, except for the vitamins, and if I still did the catheter installations. I think, if maybe, I do 2 installations a day amd only take my vitamins that I will feel so much better. My body feels more run down, probably from all the meds, than it did before I got on them. And, if I constantly feel crappy about having to take so many meds then, that does not help matters either. At least, if I do get off of the meds, I can do it gradually.

Alright well, I guess it’s time for me to try and get some reading in before I leave to go home. I hope that you all have a wonderful week. I am sending out good vibes and warm thoughts to you all.

Woo for feeling better!

Yes, I feel better now. We were able to afford my IC medications and after taking them, I went to sleep for around 12 hours. It was really good sleep, and restful too. That was 2 nights ago. I have slept pretty good since then. All of my withdrawal symptoms have almost completely stopped. Yep, I no longer have those massive migraines, no more vomiting, slight nausea a bit but manageable, my bowels have not corrected themselves all the way yet either, and my insomnia has ended. I am feeling much better and really looking forward to my sleep from now on. I don’t want to experience that ever again. From now on, if we can not afford my medications, then we will not be going out anywhere and/or buying anything. Well, I feel better now and I have yet another doctor appointment on Wednesday. And, then another doctor appointment on Friday 17. I just want to feel better, so hopefully these doctors can help me out on this. I hope that you all have a wonderful night or day and week.

Withdrawals

Yes, I have been experiencing withdrawal symptoms for about a week now. I have not been able to afford my IC medications since last Friday. I was on these medications for a year or so I believe. And, not being able to take them in a week is horrible.

I have had no good sleep, probably about 6 hours in around 3 to 4 days. I have sweating, but am freezing at the same time, vomiting, diarrhea, migraines that regular pain medicines do not touch, and PAIN everywhere. And, the reason why I am on the meds has become worse!

This is horrible! When I am able to afford my medications again, I wonder if they will just make me feel sicker because of not having them for so long, or if my body will cease with this nonsense. I guess I will find out when I can afford them.

Anyway, I hope you all are enjoying the new year and may you all be well.

Yesterday

Yesterday I had my procedure done. The one that I had to be put under for. Well, I was in a hospital gown, laying in a hospital bed, and then the anesthesiologist came in. Since I already had the iv in, they attached the viles of good stuff and went to wheel me out. Yes, I went under in about 5 minutes. And then, I woke up.

I was dreaming and then abruptly woke up. It felt as if I was only asleep about 5 minutes. Apparently I was out for over an hour. Between my legs was a burnt orange color. My vagina was in pain as soon as I went to try and pee for the first time. From there, the pain spread and increased.

Last night we went and got both of my prescriptions. One was an antibiotic and the other a pain pill. I have taken both, but not the pain pill today. I did not know how I would feel taking that and then trying to drive around. I will save that for when I am comfortable in my own house.

I could, however, use more sleep. Maybe after I get home from running errands I can take a nap. Hopefully anyway.

Well, besides the pain, maybe the doc can come up with a plan to help me now that he knows exactly what my bladder looks like.

Also, tonight me and my boyfriend are going back to the club! Yep, we need a night out for our sanity… even if we don’t play with others tonight. It is their first New Year’s Eve masquerade party! I can’t wait! I bet it’s going to be jumping and so much fun!!

New meds…

So, yesterday I went to the doctor for my ic. We discussed my pain, my frequent urination, and my meds. I do not really want to keep taking meds, but he definitely thinks they can help. So, to also alleviate some of my pain, he prescribed a muscle relaxer that I have to take twice a day. And, he is scheduling me for a cystoscopy with hydrodistintion.

Last night I took the muscle relaxer and fell asleep rather quickly and I think soundly. When I woke up this morning,  I took my other muscle relaxer. I would say I feel like maybe I’ve been drinking a bit, and I am currently fighting this extremely overwhelming need to fall asleep. I already warned my boss about my possible loopiness.

Hopefully, sometime this week I will get a call about the procedure and go ahead and schedule that. The first doctor that did that procedure on me did it wrong. I was awake for the whole thing, and it caused so much pain. It was horrible. With the new one, I will be put under and it will be done correctly!

Now, I just have to make it the next few hours. Then, I can go home. I look forward to going home. I will rest and quite possibly fall asleep… geez I wonder how tonight will go after another one of these muscle relaxers!

I hope you all have a wonderful day and enjoy this beautiful weather. I enjoy the colder weather, and enjoy being able to wear my sweaters and cold weather accessories.

Tis time for bed again!

Yes, it is bed time again. Here I am, laying down, and for the third time within 10 minutes I have to go pee again. Ugh, I hate IC. Oh well, it is not as if I can get rid of it with a snap of my fingers. And, maybe tonight, I will not have pain in my abdomen, my vagina will not be throbbing, and my feet will not be cold. Again, I guess I will find out. Wishing you all the best! Have a wonderful night, and a wonderful atart to an awesome weekend.

Oh well.

In a flare. Started Saturday, but got worse yesterday. Probably from stress. Was stressed on Saturday, but then just got worse. Oh well, I should be used to everything by now.

In a FLARE!

I have interstitial cystitis. This is painful and irritating enough as it is. Since I have IC, it causes other health problems such as irritable bowel and fibromyalgia. Now, since I have these… they all seem to flare at the same time. Yesterday was horrible and today it is bad too. I have been at work since 10 til 8 this morning and in 2 hours time, I have gone to the bathroom 4 times already, and I have to go again. My senses are over active now. My legs and back area hurt to the touch. It feels as if my vagina wants to fold outward.

Now, I recently got a new job. Although I am allowed to use the bathroom, I am trying to limit my time away from my desk. Again, in a 2 hour period I have gone 4 times already, and I still feel like I need to go.

I want all this to be gone by this weekend. I want to go back to the club with my boyfriend this weekend. He didn’t spend almost $100 on an outfit to wear to the club just for us to stay at home because my body feels like shit. No, I refuse to give in to this pain. I am used to it by now, and I will ignore it as long as I can. Unless the pain gets like it did yesterday, then it becomes hard to function. Meh, oh well, no worries. I will be alright.

I want to ignore the pain, dress up, go to the club, and have my boyfriend slide his fingers in my wet pussy whenever he wants. I don’t want to start getting intimate and all of a sudden there be pain. NO, I refuse to let that happen.

Speaking of this weekend, and outfits, the club is having a theme party on Saturday. The theme of Saturday is a Pirate/Wench evening. My boyfriend purchased a pirate outfit and I am not wearing any under garments. My DD boobs are going to be out and about, as well as my vagina… I may make a few adjustments to the skirt part to see if I can make it shorter.

I know that my subjects change when I post. My posts are also, unorganized and sloppy. With that said, I do not care. This is the way that the thoughts come to me. This is how my brain works and this is how I will convey it.

Anyway, tomorrow is the last day of work for this week and I can not wait until Saturday. It should be a blast!

Oh and if anybody has any useful information on ecstasy, I am all eyes!… I have taken it once before, but I didn’t feel a thing and I was highly disappointed. I am wondering if I should give it another try.