Today… will be a long day.

So, tonight I get to drive and pick up my boyfriend from the airport. I am so excited he is coming back! I, however, am not excited about the fact that the house still looks crappy.

I haven’t done much except laundry. Once I get home from work, I am going to nap, before the kids get home from school. After my nap I am going to put up all the clothing, and then wash whatever is left. I am going to cook dinner for the kids, and possibly find some food for myself. Then, I will do the dishes. And, once the kids are showered and in bed, I will get on the road to the airport.

Hopefully the wait at the airport will not be too long. I am ready to see my love and be in his arms. I am taking off of work tomorrow because I don’t know when we will actually be getting back home. I do know that I plan on actually getting some snuggle and cuddle time tomorrow. Woo! I can’t wait!

I am sending out good vibes and warm thoughts to you all! Have a great day and wonderful rest of the week.

Another weekend on the horizon… well, duh, time doesn’t stand still…

Yep, after work tomorrow we will start another weekend. And, this up and coming weekend is full of plans. I have to shave tonight because I will not have time to do so after work tomorrow. Then, we have a house party to attend tomorrow night. Then, we have to leave the party early so my boyfriend can attend a pre-release for MTG (Magic The Gathering). Saturday, I am not quite sure what our day plans are, but that night we are going to the club. Also, we are taking a single male friend with us to the club. We are not taking him for our use, but taking him because he really wants to go. Then, on Sunday I get to drive my boyfriend to the airport. He is flying to NY for work training. That drive is around 3 hours and then, I get to drive back home… hopefully, I will be able to have a riding companion. I do not want to fall asleep on the way back. Once I get back, I will be lonely.

The start of the new work week will begin the following day before 7 am. Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday are going to be ssdd… but, then after work on Wednesday I will drive another 3 hours to go pick my boyfriend back up from the airport. I am going to have to either switch Thursday with the teenager or just not go in at all.

Also, a few things… I went to the specialist for my IC and I have revised my plan for my medications. I am going to be tapering off of most of my medications, which is great, but then I am also going to be giving myself another catheter too. So, I will be taking less medication, but adding another catheter. I hope that this works out for my body. I do not like taking medications like this. Hopefully, I will be free of almost all pill medicines in about 2 months.

And, on another subject, both of our oldest kids are going on field trips next week! Our oldest son gets to go to the zoo and our oldest daughter gets to go watch a play at the local high school.

I have one more thing…. I love music. I dig all flavors and styles of music, it just depends on what mood I am in. I, however, do not like songs in where the words are repeated over and over with nothing new to say. I listen to it, but that does not mean that I have to like it. Yes, I understand that most singers get more play on the radio with a catchy hook or chorus, but it does not need to be all that comprises a song. And, it has started to get on my nerves hearing singers not properly articulate their words. Such as, “don’t cha”, or when a singer is supposed to say “you” but says “choo” instead.

Ugh, no wonder our future generation’s speech and language skills have dropped. If their role models can not speak properly then, how can we expect the generation to do so? They don’t even teach cursive writing in school anymore. Everybody is abbreviating their words and this is becoming acceptable today. And, electronics today… they take precedence over books and written language. I think that everyone should take courses to refresh their language skills, vocabulary, and even writing skills.

Okay, well… I hope that you all have a wonderful day. I am sending out warm wishes and good vibes to you all.

Feeling stronger every day…

So, last week I paid a lawyer to get on the task of a divorce and custody. I am scared, but relieved that I will finally have things legally taken care of. Then, on top of that… we had all 5 of our kids this weekend! I was so very happy about that. Oh yeah… we all had a ton of fun!

Oh my goodness, I am really worried about our boys who stay with my boyfriend’s mom. Things over there are getting worse and my last nerve about that has broken. My boyfriend said he will talk to his lawyer about what all he should do. Then, hopefully very soon within the next month… we will have the boys with us as well. So, then we will constantly have 4 children 24/7. And, when this happens… me and my boyfriend have agreed to turn the extra room into the girl’s room. The one that the kids stay in now will be the boy’s room. And, eventually when we can afford it, we will get another set of bunk beds. That one will have a third trundle.

I am looking forward to this very much. I want our boys to be in a healthier and safer environment. This is what they need. When we are able to transfer them to the school our other kids go to, that will be awesome for them all as well. I can only imagine the ways that they will grow and flourish under our roof. I can not wait!

Also, as I said earlier, I paid for a lawyer to get my divorce and custody handled. Yep, hopefully this will go well and not make me too stressed and crazy. I felt an immense amount of relief just paying for the lawyer. And, with my amazingly supportive boyfriend, I feel stronger everyday to make it through this. Once, the divorce is final, I will be taking back my maiden name. I am looking forward to that. I would no longer have to have this last name haunt me everyday.

Last week, and in the weeks to come, we have been very busy. The day will come when our lives are not so stressing and “on the go”. We will be able to relax and know that everything is alright. I hope that day is sooner rather than later.

I hope that you all have had a wonderful week and are staying healthy, happy, and safe! I am sending out good vibes to you all.

Holy sheep shit!

Wow, this weekend wore this lady out! Everything started on Friday…

Friday after work, my boyfriend had me meet him near where he was working to go look around a few stores and get lunch. Once we left from there, I went and picked up our youngest daughter from school. After that, and after I made it home, my boyfriend left and drove to our local Office Max and then to Wal-Mart. We bought our oldest kids each an electronic tablet. Then, when we got home my boyfriend left and took our oldest son to a Magic The Gathering tournament at the local card/hobby shop with him. While the guys were out of the house I had a girls night! Me and our daughters played dress up, I did their nails and hair, and we watched movies. We did not go to bed until after 11 pm and the guys did not come home until around 1 am.

Saturday morning, we all woke up early, ate breakfast, and got dressed. We drove a bit and stopped off at one of my boyfriend’s stores so he could fix some equipment. Then, we took our kids to Chuck E. Cheese. Yes, we took our kids to Chuck E. Cheese HELL! We spent a few hours there while our kids played and we spent money. After we wore out the kids, and ourselves, we drove to Sam’s Club and stocked up on things like different toiletries, medicines, cleaners, and various types of soap. Next, we went to Barnes & Noble Booksellers and purchased a couple hundred dollars worth of books. Well, feeling hungry again and after spending more than a few hundred dollars we headed home. As we headed for home me and my boyfriend came up with an idea for dinner. We would stop off at Lowe’s Foods for the salad bar, a rotisserie chicken, and a dessert. Then, finally HOME to eat and relax. We ate, watched a movie, and then it was bed time!

Now, on Sunday morning, my boyfriend had to wake up early again because he had to go work on more equipment. Once he got home with breakfast, we ate, got dressed, and then headed out again. We drove straight to a Best Buy and bought a 10.1, 32 gig, Note tablet and accessories for my boyfriend. Then, on to a fabric store to look. We ended up getting a few shirts and fabric paint markers so the kids could color them. The mall came next. Yes, we took the munchkins to the mall. We ate lunch at the food court, bought some items for the kids from Hot Topic. We finally headed home after that. We were trying to make it home in time so my boyfriend could take our youngest daughter back to her other “parent”. Once he made it back home after she left we fed our oldest children. And, just as I was really getting comfortable and wanting sleep… we got up and left again! With that being our last trip for the weekend, we drove towards Wal-Mart. First, we stopped at K-Mart to look for sheets that we liked. They ended up not being there, but we did get our oldest kids a pair of shoes each… and an ice cream cone for my boyfriend. Then, we went to Wal-Mart and it was a bit crowded, but not as bad as it could have been. Being that I have gained so much weight in the past year, my clothes do not fit me like they used to. When I say they do not fit like they used to, I mean that they don’t fit me at all! I have been stuck wearing the same clothes over and over to work during the week. So, our first place to browse was the clothing section. I was able to find 7 pairs of pants and a good few shirts. Finding clothes for my boyfriend and our 5 kids was not that hard either. We got new dishes, silverware, a lamp, a blanket, a carpet shampooer, towels for both bathrooms, candles & incense, a couple rugs, and some odds and ends things. Once we were done there, we headed home to unload, shower, and go to bed.

So, after all of that running around and spending some money, our total was around $4000 and that included the gas to drive around as well. Now, we still have not gotten other things that our house needs, but at least we have gotten the bulk of it.

It is Monday again, and I am sitting at work wishing I was at home. But, once I get home I get to start unpacking everything we got this weekend. Oh my goodness can I get some actual rest? Did I forget to mention that I did not sleep well at all? Well, I did not. Oh well, I have to keep going because I have a family, a job, and a house that need taking care of.

I hope that you all have a wonderful week. Sending out good vibes and warm wishes. And, if you will be having inclement weather… good luck, stay warm and dry, and stay safe.

I believe…

Think for yourself and be your own person.

After another sexual weekend at the club, and playing with a couple we have played with before, I am calm and refreshed. These experiences at the club chip away at my stress. It is not just being able to be myself and not be ashamed of who I am on the inside, it is also being surrounded by like minded people. I ate a delicious pussy this weekend, sucked dick, had sex, and enjoyed all of it! I realize now, that I was meant to be where I spiritually, mentally, and sexually am at today. I am thankful to have my boyfriend who has helped me and continues to uplift me everyday. Sexually, he is the perfect partner for me. He encourages my sexual side, and I only hope that I return the favor! I mean, I was eating a pussy as he was cramming his dick into it… it was so frickin HOTT! Oh my gosh, I am wanting some sex right now… maybe me and my boyfriend can get to that when I get off of work. I love sex, but I am not a slut. I am sexually enlightened. I am sending out good vibes and warm thoughts for you all. I hope that you all have a wonderful week!

Naked lady cuddles? Yes, PLEASE!

Alright, here is what when down last night… me! Haha. Yep, I went down on a sexy chick, who I’ve had the pleasure of her company before.

Me and my boyfriend, got ready and headed to our friend’s house for dinner. We ate, we talked, and then I went to the restroom and came back out without pants on. Next time I will do that sooner! After walking out without pants, we still continued to talk and watch a bit of tv. A little bit later, we migrated into their bedroom and that is when I had to start things off.

Once in the bedroom, I started rubbing her on the outside of her pants. Me and her fiance took off her pants and underwear. Then, I really started my assault of her pussy. Some of the time I was sucking her clit like I was a vacuum! I even went down on her while her boyfriend was sticking his dick in and out of her vagina. The words, “she is so good”, came out of her mouth while I was down on her. I was biting her, scratching, pulling hair, I even lightly put my hand around her neck to squeeze it ever so gently. And, while I did these things to her, my boyfriend behind me stuck his dick, toys, and his fingers into my waiting and ready vagina.

It has been probably over 2 weeks since we last actually had sex! Yep, you read that correctly. Before last night, it was at least 2 weeks since we had sex. And, wow, was I ready for him. He made me cum and squirt, and it was delicious! I was being squirted on all over my front by the sexy lady and I was squirting too! It was awesome! I hope that me and my boyfriend get to have sex again sometime soon.

Maybe at some point in time today or tonight before my boyfriend leaves? I guess I will find out later.

A couple of things…

Okay, a few things, I went to another doctor’s appointment and my downstairs is still not cooperating, I can’t shake this sleepy feeling, we went to the club this weekend, and our gaming is becoming more prominent.

On Friday, I did not work because I had a doctor’s appointment with my bladder specialist 1 and 1/2 hours away. Yep, we are at an impasse with my interstitial cystitis. In order to help my bladder heal, more aggressive forms of treatment is our course of action. I now have to start giving myself catheters at home. Yes, you read that right. I have to insert a catheter myself and then, I have to directly inject my bladder with medication. Ugh, I am dreading having to start this. All I can do is feel pain when I think about it. I was showed how to do this on Friday and it hurt a lot. But, I have to do what I have to do in order to possibly feel better and help my bladder heal.

Alright, so after my doctor appointment, our oldest daughter went to her other parent’s house. Then, later, a sanctioned Magic The Gathering Tournament was scheduled. Yep, my boyfriend proctored this Magic event at our local card/hobby/game shop. He is becoming friends with the owners. Now, they wanted to get started at around 6:30 pm, but it wasn’t until later that they started. My boyfriend also took our oldest son with him to the shop. Yep, my son played games with the owner’s son for over 7 hours. He had a blast! They finally came back home after 1 am. I was excited that my son had someone to go play with.

On Saturday, after we all got up, we had breakfast and hung around the house. My boyfriend, his friend, and I played some Magic together. Now, we planned to go to the club this night! It was pajama themed night! Now, for this event I wore my red night gown and matching black lace panties. It looked like a dress. It is a gorgeous crimson red trimmed with black lace. I felt as if I might look alright. We went and got to hang out. We talked to those we know and some we just met. We did not have sex with anyone, not even with each other. We have not had sex in probably at least 2 weeks due to my vagina not cooperating. I hope it gets better. Oh, and this night… one of the owner’s looked particularly delicious! I could have jumped all over that if my lady parts were working correctly. Oh well, maybe another time! Around 1 am, I think it was, we drove home and went to bed.

Then, on Sunday, after playing a couple games of Magic (I won both!), we went to the card shop and dropped off a collection of heroclix. As our son was playing with the owner’s son again, we went and walked around the blocks in downtown. After that, we drove to a restaurant and had a quiet lunch. It was nice and yet, I was nervous for my son. He is growing up so much. We have been discussing the idea of having our kids go spend the night with friends, or have their friends come to our house and spend the night! Yep, I get nervous even typing that. My kids are growing up and I want to protect them from all potential harm… Also, Sunday we got our youngest daughter! Yes, the one who my boyfriend is currently going to court over. It was so nice to have her around. She is definitely more defiant and less disciplined than we had her more. We can tell they let her do whatever she wants at all times. Ugh, but hopefully the courts will help us out and do what is right for our daughter.

Okay, well, on to Monday. I got up and went to work. Fun, right? NOT! I was tired and hungry yesterday. When I cooked dinner, I got some help from our two oldest. As dinner was cooking I talked about getting our boys from their grandma this weekend. So, once I got the okay about them, I am happy to say that we will have all 5 kids this weekend! But, on Friday night, it will be just me and the kids because my boyfriend, our roommate, and their friends are going to the shop to play Magic. Yep, that means I will be by myself with the kids. Today, I brought food to work, but I couldn’t eat it all. I have also, tried falling asleep here on my desk. But, hopefully I can get to sleep earlier tonight.

Tomorrow, after work I have yet another doctor’s appointment. I will be getting my test results from last Monday as well as discussing all that is going on with my body. Let us hope that we get good news!

Oh, also… one of the funniest things my son has ever said, was said this weekend. It was Saturday night, it was dinner time, before we left for the club… as we are discussing what we should do for dinner and concluded that we wanted to order pizza. Right before we were going to order, my son looked at us and said, “don’t come crying to me when you don’t have any money, because I only have 2 dollars”… ! It was so hilarious the way he delivered this line. We could not stop laughing. Holy crap, it is still cracking me up.

Also, we are really looking to possibly move to a different house this year. Preferably a house that we can rent to own.

Okay, well, now that I have caught you all up on what has been going on, I shall wish you all a great week. Sending out good vibes to you all.

No humping for me on this Wednesday.

So, today began like any other day, I woke up. Yep, I sure did and I took my morning meds. Then, I went and made sure the kids were ready for school and waiting for the bus to arrive. They were ready and waiting. After they left, I fed our cat and then myself.

Once I got ready for work, I got my bags together and headed out. I finally brought the laptop, after taking a couple weeks break from it. I finished “The Hobbit” by J. R. R. Tolkien, the other day, and it was fantastic. Yesterday, I started a new book called “low red moon” by Ivy Devlin. I am almost halfway done with it and so far it is okay, but only just okay. Once I finish this one, I will be onto a different book.

Now, as the title to this post suggests, I will not be humping today. Nope not me. As my lady parts are still out of commission, I could possibly offer my boyfriend relief with my mouth or giant boobs! They are always have an open invitation for him though. I guess I will let you guys know later if anything happens.

Also, while sitting here at my desk at work, I am contemplating things we may be able to purchase when we actually get our taxes done. So far, we have tires for our vehicle, get a lawyer for me to handle court/divorce/custody issues, carpet cleaner, house repairs, eye contacts, and a few wants… he wants to get me a breast augmentation, pants and clothes that fit me and for the kids, bikes for the kids, a tablet for him, and material to sew the cloaks and outfits we wanted. What do you guys think so far about that list?

Yes, my boyfriend wants to get me a breast augmentation. Not just an enhancement, but a lift. I am very self conscious about my tits. I do feel that they hang lower than I would like and they have stretch marks on them. My boyfriend wants me to feel good about the way that I look. I want to be able to like the way I look as well.

According to what we may be getting back, we may be able to purchase all things mentioned on the list. But, if we do not have enough to get all of it, I just want us to be able to afford the necessary things first. Hopefully, when we get our taxes back, we can afford what we need and keep our bills paid up.

Well, I am sending out good vibes and warm wishes to you all. I hope that you all have a wonderful day!

Woo for feeling better!

Yes, I feel better now. We were able to afford my IC medications and after taking them, I went to sleep for around 12 hours. It was really good sleep, and restful too. That was 2 nights ago. I have slept pretty good since then. All of my withdrawal symptoms have almost completely stopped. Yep, I no longer have those massive migraines, no more vomiting, slight nausea a bit but manageable, my bowels have not corrected themselves all the way yet either, and my insomnia has ended. I am feeling much better and really looking forward to my sleep from now on. I don’t want to experience that ever again. From now on, if we can not afford my medications, then we will not be going out anywhere and/or buying anything. Well, I feel better now and I have yet another doctor appointment on Wednesday. And, then another doctor appointment on Friday 17. I just want to feel better, so hopefully these doctors can help me out on this. I hope that you all have a wonderful night or day and week.