Feeling stronger every day…

So, last week I paid a lawyer to get on the task of a divorce and custody. I am scared, but relieved that I will finally have things legally taken care of. Then, on top of that… we had all 5 of our kids this weekend! I was so very happy about that. Oh yeah… we all had a ton of fun!

Oh my goodness, I am really worried about our boys who stay with my boyfriend’s mom. Things over there are getting worse and my last nerve about that has broken. My boyfriend said he will talk to his lawyer about what all he should do. Then, hopefully very soon within the next month… we will have the boys with us as well. So, then we will constantly have 4 children 24/7. And, when this happens… me and my boyfriend have agreed to turn the extra room into the girl’s room. The one that the kids stay in now will be the boy’s room. And, eventually when we can afford it, we will get another set of bunk beds. That one will have a third trundle.

I am looking forward to this very much. I want our boys to be in a healthier and safer environment. This is what they need. When we are able to transfer them to the school our other kids go to, that will be awesome for them all as well. I can only imagine the ways that they will grow and flourish under our roof. I can not wait!

Also, as I said earlier, I paid for a lawyer to get my divorce and custody handled. Yep, hopefully this will go well and not make me too stressed and crazy. I felt an immense amount of relief just paying for the lawyer. And, with my amazingly supportive boyfriend, I feel stronger everyday to make it through this. Once, the divorce is final, I will be taking back my maiden name. I am looking forward to that. I would no longer have to have this last name haunt me everyday.

Last week, and in the weeks to come, we have been very busy. The day will come when our lives are not so stressing and “on the go”. We will be able to relax and know that everything is alright. I hope that day is sooner rather than later.

I hope that you all have had a wonderful week and are staying healthy, happy, and safe! I am sending out good vibes to you all.

Holy sheep shit!

Wow, this weekend wore this lady out! Everything started on Friday…

Friday after work, my boyfriend had me meet him near where he was working to go look around a few stores and get lunch. Once we left from there, I went and picked up our youngest daughter from school. After that, and after I made it home, my boyfriend left and drove to our local Office Max and then to Wal-Mart. We bought our oldest kids each an electronic tablet. Then, when we got home my boyfriend left and took our oldest son to a Magic The Gathering tournament at the local card/hobby shop with him. While the guys were out of the house I had a girls night! Me and our daughters played dress up, I did their nails and hair, and we watched movies. We did not go to bed until after 11 pm and the guys did not come home until around 1 am.

Saturday morning, we all woke up early, ate breakfast, and got dressed. We drove a bit and stopped off at one of my boyfriend’s stores so he could fix some equipment. Then, we took our kids to Chuck E. Cheese. Yes, we took our kids to Chuck E. Cheese HELL! We spent a few hours there while our kids played and we spent money. After we wore out the kids, and ourselves, we drove to Sam’s Club and stocked up on things like different toiletries, medicines, cleaners, and various types of soap. Next, we went to Barnes & Noble Booksellers and purchased a couple hundred dollars worth of books. Well, feeling hungry again and after spending more than a few hundred dollars we headed home. As we headed for home me and my boyfriend came up with an idea for dinner. We would stop off at Lowe’s Foods for the salad bar, a rotisserie chicken, and a dessert. Then, finally HOME to eat and relax. We ate, watched a movie, and then it was bed time!

Now, on Sunday morning, my boyfriend had to wake up early again because he had to go work on more equipment. Once he got home with breakfast, we ate, got dressed, and then headed out again. We drove straight to a Best Buy and bought a 10.1, 32 gig, Note tablet and accessories for my boyfriend. Then, on to a fabric store to look. We ended up getting a few shirts and fabric paint markers so the kids could color them. The mall came next. Yes, we took the munchkins to the mall. We ate lunch at the food court, bought some items for the kids from Hot Topic. We finally headed home after that. We were trying to make it home in time so my boyfriend could take our youngest daughter back to her other “parent”. Once he made it back home after she left we fed our oldest children. And, just as I was really getting comfortable and wanting sleep… we got up and left again! With that being our last trip for the weekend, we drove towards Wal-Mart. First, we stopped at K-Mart to look for sheets that we liked. They ended up not being there, but we did get our oldest kids a pair of shoes each… and an ice cream cone for my boyfriend. Then, we went to Wal-Mart and it was a bit crowded, but not as bad as it could have been. Being that I have gained so much weight in the past year, my clothes do not fit me like they used to. When I say they do not fit like they used to, I mean that they don’t fit me at all! I have been stuck wearing the same clothes over and over to work during the week. So, our first place to browse was the clothing section. I was able to find 7 pairs of pants and a good few shirts. Finding clothes for my boyfriend and our 5 kids was not that hard either. We got new dishes, silverware, a lamp, a blanket, a carpet shampooer, towels for both bathrooms, candles & incense, a couple rugs, and some odds and ends things. Once we were done there, we headed home to unload, shower, and go to bed.

So, after all of that running around and spending some money, our total was around $4000 and that included the gas to drive around as well. Now, we still have not gotten other things that our house needs, but at least we have gotten the bulk of it.

It is Monday again, and I am sitting at work wishing I was at home. But, once I get home I get to start unpacking everything we got this weekend. Oh my goodness can I get some actual rest? Did I forget to mention that I did not sleep well at all? Well, I did not. Oh well, I have to keep going because I have a family, a job, and a house that need taking care of.

I hope that you all have a wonderful week. Sending out good vibes and warm wishes. And, if you will be having inclement weather… good luck, stay warm and dry, and stay safe.

My first credit card!

Yep, this week I got my first credit card! I am ecstatic to have it. Not just for raising my okay credit, but because I needed tires on my car. That was the first thing I did. I went out and got a set of tires. It was nice to see new tires on my car, especially since a week ago my front right tire went flat. I was surprised that the other front tire didn’t go too. They both were warped, overly bald, and had wires showing like crazy. I was lucky to make it as far as I did and for those tires to last as long as they did. Then, yesterday, on the way home from work, I stopped and used the card for a full tank of gas. That is as much as I will use it for until I pay off what I already purchased. I don’t have that high of a limit, but it sure as hell helped! When I do get my taxes back I will go and pay off most of what I spent, excluding the charge for the card itself. That way I will still be able to build the credit up. I am very thankful for this piece of plastic. It has helped tremendously already. Now, we just need to get our taxes and start saving along with our credit building! 

I believe…

Think for yourself and be your own person.

After another sexual weekend at the club, and playing with a couple we have played with before, I am calm and refreshed. These experiences at the club chip away at my stress. It is not just being able to be myself and not be ashamed of who I am on the inside, it is also being surrounded by like minded people. I ate a delicious pussy this weekend, sucked dick, had sex, and enjoyed all of it! I realize now, that I was meant to be where I spiritually, mentally, and sexually am at today. I am thankful to have my boyfriend who has helped me and continues to uplift me everyday. Sexually, he is the perfect partner for me. He encourages my sexual side, and I only hope that I return the favor! I mean, I was eating a pussy as he was cramming his dick into it… it was so frickin HOTT! Oh my gosh, I am wanting some sex right now… maybe me and my boyfriend can get to that when I get off of work. I love sex, but I am not a slut. I am sexually enlightened. I am sending out good vibes and warm thoughts for you all. I hope that you all have a wonderful week!